I miss radio.
There.
I said it. I miss radio.
Not the mundane things like paying royalties and juggling rotations, or even the excitement of getting new music in the mail. What I really miss is the emails I would get at just the right time. When the studio computer needed work and the royalties were past due and I was just about ready to give up. Those emails would come in.
Telling me that something that we played or said made a difference in someones life. An eternal difference. And it suddenly was worth every second I put into it. I miss making a difference. I miss seeing lives changed.
I often wonder when I gave up. At what point did I make the choice that I would take the easy path of working my job and nothing more?
Was it when someone I considered a friend and a partner in ministry filed a restraining order against my family so we couldn't interact with their kids? Was it when the local churches failed to show the moral fortitude that should have come easily and refused to stand up for us? Maybe. I know that is when organized religion started to make me throw up a little every time I was around it.
All I know is that it quickly became too painful for me to reach people through radio. We sold the station, and I focused on escape.
I miss radio.
Hmm, maybe something like pod casting could give you an outlet to reach people?
I hope something new can fill the gap that leaving radio opened.
I really appreciate your honesty and candidness. i was moved by this piece. i am sorry that your spiritual community didn't stand by you and that organized religion started feeling sickening to you. i hope that you feel God's love right this moment, it is bigger than the biggest mega-church in the universe.
Blessings,
Deacon Nadia of the Center of Light, Minneapolis.
I really understand a part of what you say. Organized church barfs over a lot of us trying to make a difference outside of the organization or within it if we see ministry differently. People are 'really committed' to reaching the youth and kids of this generation until it gets in the way of their nice life and then they look at us that have real passion like we're whacked. When it was streaming, I pointed a number of kids/youth to your station.
Blessings on you and yours.
MrA
And Steve, I've gotta say we all really miss The Torch.
Hi Steve -
You are missed in radio, too.
The station you guys put together inspired me to start The_Edge 919 to serve much the same audience you guys were serving. It's been a good thing - and many who would never listen to a more traditional Christian station listen to it.
It's tough keeping that format viable in a non-comm environment - and I'm amazed you guys kept it going as long as you did. We, at least had a 'safety net' of sorts.
I wasn't aware of much of what you went through - but be sure 90.1 IS still making a difference - though to a different audience. We still get those same types of letters and e-mails from people... Come to think of it - some of our current listeners are most likely the same ones that started a relationship through your work 10-15 years ago.
Blessings!
bruce
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