A reason to live.

July of 2001 I was diagnosed with Hodgkin's Lymphoma.

I spent the next 5 years trying to reach that 5 year cancer-free milestone. That was my driving force for almost 6 years.

I reached that milestone, and paused.

Pausing and reflecting are good activities. The problem is I've been paused for far too long. I need a reason to press on. A reason to get up in the morning and do stuff. I know of lots of things that should be that reason. But none of them carry the urgency or intensity of staying alive.

I don't expect you, dear reader, to know what that reason is any more than I know it. I am simply logging my disenchantment with the status quo.

I recently told a friend, "Nothing will change until you change".
Perhaps it is time for me to heed my own advice.